Have you ever imagined that the most possible worst thing could ever happen to you? Someone like me with an overactive imagination or so I am told can sometimes look into the future and see what possibilities lie before me. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that sometimes people and things seem to come against you. I am not the only victim in the world but to consider myself to be a victim would be self-defeating in the first place so I'll say I'm not the only casualty that there is. Have you ever met someone without a voice well as I am writing this blog right now I'm using my voice on my computer to type out the words that you are reading right now. There are some things that are hard to understand and there some things that are easy to understand but in order to understand them you need to have information. Information is what makes us choose the right and Shun the wrong but if someone is withholding information from us we don't have the proper information to make a right decision. So that's a call for help I'm calling upon my friends and my family to show me the things that I do not see clearly.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person in this universe and it's not that I am depressed about that it's that I sometimes feel that people are not telling me the whole story. I would say that I'm a happy person and I have no thoughts of causing myself to feel any kind of self harm but the problem lies that other people don't see me as a happy person sometimes and maybe that's just my interpretation but that's just how I feel. I have family members on my mom side who might can relate to more better. I am currently trying to figure out whether or not my parents are planning to move to Laredo Texas to live with my uncle this is something that I've been trying to figure out for sometime now and feel like I've been left in the dark. Somehow I've become the enemy or the black sheep in my family possibly because I'm very vocal about my Christian beliefs. I try not to impose my beliefs on other people however if someone is interested in what I believe or if I feel the need to tell someone or to share my faith I will do so. This is why I feel as though I am the only person in my family who is not connected with the other people (relatives) around me.
The only time that I've been in trouble with the law was back in 1999 when I told my brother something that I shouldn't of told him and then realize that only my words were enough to cause him to press charges against me. I don't think I would've done the same thing my brother did however I did forgive him and I do believe he might have been justified in pressing charges against me however false the claims were. Ever since I was diagnosed with a mental illness I've been experiencing severe persecution from those who don't understand what I've been going through. Something that has been a great encouragement has been the ability to start going back to church this is been a foundation stone in my recovery process. Whether or not it is true that my family is planning to relocate and me with them if that's the case I still want to be able to go to church and have an active social life wherever my family relocates. I think my aunts and uncles in the states specifically in Chicago are more concerned about what's going on in our family. Things seem to be hush-hush and if I even knew what was going on I would share with my aunt and my uncle Sam and Kathy in Chicago Illinois.
But since there is somewhat of a veil of silence within my own family I have to rely on those who may know what my parents might be planning for the future. I'm going to post this blog on Facebook and I'm also going to post this on Google plus I know this is a shot in the dark and those of you who are on my Facebook page are probably just as unaware of what I'm talking about is I am so at least this will bring something to light and if any good comes out of this blog it will be that I've expressed my feelings in a clear and precise way and feel comfortable doing so. Thanks for reading.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person in this universe and it's not that I am depressed about that it's that I sometimes feel that people are not telling me the whole story. I would say that I'm a happy person and I have no thoughts of causing myself to feel any kind of self harm but the problem lies that other people don't see me as a happy person sometimes and maybe that's just my interpretation but that's just how I feel. I have family members on my mom side who might can relate to more better. I am currently trying to figure out whether or not my parents are planning to move to Laredo Texas to live with my uncle this is something that I've been trying to figure out for sometime now and feel like I've been left in the dark. Somehow I've become the enemy or the black sheep in my family possibly because I'm very vocal about my Christian beliefs. I try not to impose my beliefs on other people however if someone is interested in what I believe or if I feel the need to tell someone or to share my faith I will do so. This is why I feel as though I am the only person in my family who is not connected with the other people (relatives) around me.
The only time that I've been in trouble with the law was back in 1999 when I told my brother something that I shouldn't of told him and then realize that only my words were enough to cause him to press charges against me. I don't think I would've done the same thing my brother did however I did forgive him and I do believe he might have been justified in pressing charges against me however false the claims were. Ever since I was diagnosed with a mental illness I've been experiencing severe persecution from those who don't understand what I've been going through. Something that has been a great encouragement has been the ability to start going back to church this is been a foundation stone in my recovery process. Whether or not it is true that my family is planning to relocate and me with them if that's the case I still want to be able to go to church and have an active social life wherever my family relocates. I think my aunts and uncles in the states specifically in Chicago are more concerned about what's going on in our family. Things seem to be hush-hush and if I even knew what was going on I would share with my aunt and my uncle Sam and Kathy in Chicago Illinois.
But since there is somewhat of a veil of silence within my own family I have to rely on those who may know what my parents might be planning for the future. I'm going to post this blog on Facebook and I'm also going to post this on Google plus I know this is a shot in the dark and those of you who are on my Facebook page are probably just as unaware of what I'm talking about is I am so at least this will bring something to light and if any good comes out of this blog it will be that I've expressed my feelings in a clear and precise way and feel comfortable doing so. Thanks for reading.
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