Who is knocking at Your heart?

I have to admit, I'm usually not this happy and I really don't have the words to describe what I'm feeling right now, but if you have ever been without food for several days and someone offers you a cold drink and a meal you might understand the joy that God provides for those who's hearts are clean. I say that in a relative sense because we are all infected with the disease of sin, which was so clearly pointed out to me this Sunday afternoon as I visited a church which isn't my home church as I would of been left alone at home, while my parents celebrated thanksgiving by attending a service at their local church.

My life hasn't been easy, nor ever it was, but it became more challenging but forgive me, more happy as I struggle with emotional issues which were the result of wrong choices I made in my early to mid twenties. I have a question that has never been answered and maybe by writing this I might see a little bit better why I always seem to feel less than normal during times of emotional stress. I think the answer lies in the sin of other people.

I have never been the kind of person who enjoys confronting people when they are wrong and I feel that sometimes I allow myself to let other people make important decisions, when I feel weak or out of control. My crime would be that I tend to believe that as a christian, I tend to see the world of faith sometimes without letting my mind discern the unbelief in people who may have an outward appearance of religion but lack the power to be true to their convictions. Without getting myself and the reader confused, it's not that I don't know or follow the truth, it's that I let other people 'get away' with believing a lie because I know if I were to tell them the truth they would reject it. This evening I had the opportunity to share my faith with a complete stranger, and as I was doing it a gladness filled my heart, realising she was alien to the concept of authentic faith in Christ, I still felt a gladness.

I think we all let people 'get away' with believing untruth at times because of the circumstances and laws that are in place to protect the freedom of religion in this country, and in fact it is better off when someone who is really ready to hear the gospel, enters into our influence or path.

I am not saying that as a saved person we would be better off only preaching to one kind of people group, I'm just saying that when we are invited or lead to attend a social or religious gathering that is not the normal for you, the best thing to do if you are saved is not to attend, but if you have no choice to attend the best thing to do is to keep very close to the door because you may be leaving early.