It was during the fall. Winter was over, but it felt like it was cold. I was riding my bike around the block of the suburban subdivisions in which I had returned home after an experience in College that left me depressed and confused. I remember for three days I was depressed. I would lie on my bed for what seemed to be an hour, one word depressed. Then I got up, got on my bike and peddled around my block. The last lag of the journey, I'm surprised I didn't break a chain or something, my bike must have been in good shape, but I peddled hard, I peddled fast. I was sprinting, riding as fast as my legs could peddle saying to myself internally, what ever life has planned for me, whatever it takes I am going to win (sounds like present day Charlie Sheen) except I wasn't crazy at the time.
I got home and put my bike away, and anticipated work the next day. I had peddled out of my depression. I don't remember if it was the next day at work, or sometime that week but I was cleaning a car, I was working as a car jockey, and I heard something on the radio that changed my life. At this point I had experimented with my sexuality at College, a thing that most women do now but back in the 90's men were doing it just as much as women. Before I left College If you asked me I liked girls, but the thing I was struggling with was that I was clearly bi-sexual. That's why I left, I didn't want to be that way anymore, and the environment was very pro-gay and I was beginning to resent the fact that the girls I liked who were in my class no longer were seeing me as a straight man, but the Mike who like boys which wasn't totally true, I just liked sleeping with them. Ya I was gay.
I turned the car radio on hoping to listen to some music while vacuuming the car I was cleaning. I do remember that I hit the preset dials on the radio and the station that came on was WDCX fm, a born-again christian radio station out of Buffalo. I remember thinking, WOW I wonder what they are talking about. She was talking about homosexuality. Her name was June Hunt and the programs description was Hope for the Homosexual. Obviously from a Christian perspective.
I ran to the phone after the show was over it was only fifteen minutes long "Can I order the material you are offering? I just listened to your program and she was describing exactly how I feel..." another she said "great can I get your credit card number?..."(at the end of the conversation) "would you like the salvation package?" she said. "Sure," I said--"Your material will be arriving in about two weeks" mail was allot faster then. Sure enough I got all the information, and on a chilly fall night, in my childhood bedroom I gave my heart and life to Jesus Christ. No longer as a gay man, bu a forgiven straight man.
1 Corinthians 6:11
I got home and put my bike away, and anticipated work the next day. I had peddled out of my depression. I don't remember if it was the next day at work, or sometime that week but I was cleaning a car, I was working as a car jockey, and I heard something on the radio that changed my life. At this point I had experimented with my sexuality at College, a thing that most women do now but back in the 90's men were doing it just as much as women. Before I left College If you asked me I liked girls, but the thing I was struggling with was that I was clearly bi-sexual. That's why I left, I didn't want to be that way anymore, and the environment was very pro-gay and I was beginning to resent the fact that the girls I liked who were in my class no longer were seeing me as a straight man, but the Mike who like boys which wasn't totally true, I just liked sleeping with them. Ya I was gay.
I turned the car radio on hoping to listen to some music while vacuuming the car I was cleaning. I do remember that I hit the preset dials on the radio and the station that came on was WDCX fm, a born-again christian radio station out of Buffalo. I remember thinking, WOW I wonder what they are talking about. She was talking about homosexuality. Her name was June Hunt and the programs description was Hope for the Homosexual. Obviously from a Christian perspective.
I ran to the phone after the show was over it was only fifteen minutes long "Can I order the material you are offering? I just listened to your program and she was describing exactly how I feel..." another she said "great can I get your credit card number?..."(at the end of the conversation) "would you like the salvation package?" she said. "Sure," I said--"Your material will be arriving in about two weeks" mail was allot faster then. Sure enough I got all the information, and on a chilly fall night, in my childhood bedroom I gave my heart and life to Jesus Christ. No longer as a gay man, bu a forgiven straight man.
1 Corinthians 6:11
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