Sometimes circumstances in life seem out of our control. There are some people out there who are desperately needing resolution about certain things, and when I feel that way I get frustrated. In 1999 I was diagnosed with a lifelong illness, and there was a process of grief that I had to go through for many years, to accept what had happened to my health, and at the very beginning it was very difficult. I had to live with the burden that my illness was causing a burden to my family, and I thought that because I got sick, it was my fault. Regardless if it was my fault or not, I needed resolution in my own heart, so the inner conflict would be resolved in my own heart. I had to live with broken relationships, and many people who didn't understand what I was going through and through all this I didn't wanted peoples pity, I wanted God's compassion. The hardest thing to deal with on my road to recovery, was the harsh, uncaring opinions of people who just didn't understand