The post mordem reasoning and the collective society.

As I type this I am listening to a local radio station and contemplating the meaning of life. As I hear the music of familiar of voices I am reminded of all the different women I have given my life to in my adolescent fantasies as a boy in a man's body. I am reminded that I am not really mentally ill, just deranged in a good way. As thoughts race through my mind I try to voice all the hell and the disappointments that have lead me to believe that I am a girl. I went through this when I was in college, I thought I was gay, but the nice christian people told me that homosexuality was a sin...so I repented and they say that I was forgiven. But as I really think about it and listen to the king of pop, maybe I'm not really a girl after all but a god. A God of sex.

People talk about vocation and if I had a christian vocation, I know I would make a good leader,but as Katy Perry has said "then there is that responsibility thing." But then there is that voice that is telling me to live my life a a woman for at least a day would be an educational thing. Don't get me wrong, I am not confused about my sexual identity, I'm confused about yours. You say your a women, yes you are, and quite a beautiful one. But the people who rule my life tell me that there is no room for me to be in a relationship right now..it would just confuse thing and the last thing I want righ now is a beautiful friend not to be in love with me.

So with all that said, I will confine this thought of my life to the dust bin of reality, and say that I am quite happy being a man for now. lol.

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