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Anxiety Hurts.

I am not a professional counselor however I know from personal experience that anxiety can prevent you from doing a lot of things. When we have unmet needs or dreams, it takes a lot of courage and time to work through the feelings of being disappointed. When I am waiting for something to happen, or when I feel I am procrastinating certain decisions that I know will benefit my health, I can very easily defeat myself. Sometimes it's just a matter of believing in yourself, or sometimes it's just trying something that you have always dreaded. We fear what we don't know, and when I step out in my faith and try to do that thing that has been scaring me, I could end up loving it or hating it.

I believe God gives me the ability to hope, and the ability to dream because life would be extremely boring if I had nothing to reach for. If all our dreams came true we would be incredibly disappointed and would have nothing left to hope for in life. I believe disappointments are things that can strengthen my resolve to keep me hoping in life, especially if I am going through a rough patch and success seems to evade me. There can be a quiet desperation that creeps into our souls when we don't listen to our inner compass, and when we don't take the time to care for ourselves.

In this season of my life, I need to show myself more kindness and compassion. Over the years we humans can loose touch with the innocence that comes so naturally to us when we are kids. I can think that being recognized might solve all my fears about the future, but life at any time can throw us a curve ball, a lesson I learned from a teacher in college. Bad things happen, and then I have a tendency to question the very purpose of my existence. When I was younger, I knew what I wanted to do with my life, but after a serious health setback in 1999, I had to relearn what my life was all about.

It took me back to church, literally, where I found that my purpose in life is not necessarily what I do, but who I am. I learned that true success is the kind of person we are becoming. It's definitely the journey not the destination. As I am living my life, life itself is teaching me the good and punishing me for the bad. What I mean is that we all have choices to make here, some are rewarding and some are not. I have always wanted to stay in good health, but something like our health can be rewarding if we continue to make the good decisions. This is Mike.

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