Skip to main content

My Journey with God.

I became a born again Christian in 1995 through a radio ministry called "Hope for the Heart." I was struggling with a sexual sin, that was keeping me trapped and I learned that through the blood and the cross of Jesus I could be free from that sin. I was at work, and immediately after the broadcast I memorized their number, then after, called the ministry. I learned through material they sent me that my sexual sin was something I could be free from, and I confessed that sin to God and He freed me. I learned what the bible said about my sin, and I also heard the plan of salvation for the first time. To me church was something you did on Sunday, but being a Christian was never my identity. When I learned who Jesus was for the first time it was a revelation that changed my life and my understanding about Heaven. I was apprehensive about receiving Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour, but I did it anyway. In fact, I did it twice that night, just to be sure it took. And all these years later, I have been free from that sin.

The night I repented, I knew I had made my peace with God, but my faith was about to be challenged. Not several months after my conversion, I remember sitting in my basement after a relationship breakup, and I actually felt my belief in God leaving me. The question I was asking myself before this happened was "why did God allow this to happen?" I was a baby Christian and had no answers, so I lost my belief in God. That year, I got two tattoos and moved out to Peterborough Ontario, to attend University but left before the school year officially started, to travel to an ashram in California to learn how to meditate.

When I got back home, I was a different person, with very different beliefs, but to me it was real. Long story short, in 1999 I checked myself into the mental hospital because I felt like I was having a breakdown. It was one of the things that eventually brought me back to my Christian Faith. I met someone while I was in the hospital, and when I was released we both went to the meditation centre I used to go to in Toronto. She said something to me, I'll call her "Pat", Pat said "as you were meditating, I was talking to God for you." She asked me what God I worshiped? I told her there is only One God and she made me see that I had stopped worshipping the God of the bible. "Pat" helped me back to God. Although I couldn't let go of the informal mediation, I was back on a journey to discovering who the real God of the bible was, through the word of God. It's been almost 20 years now, and "Pat" and I are just friends. I still meditate, but it is no longer a religious experience.

I read my bible everyday and attend a Catholic Church because I grew up Catholic, and I identify as a born again Christian. I suffer from chronic depression and life is very hard at times. I suffer from anxiety too, but over the years I have attached myself to other believers in Christ. This is Mike.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Parable of the Ten Virgins.

 Matthew 25:1-13 I have discovered a remarkable interpretation of this parable that I would like to share with you. The story in the Bible goes like this:    “At that time the kingdom of heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom.   2  Five of them were foolish and five were wise.   3  The foolish ones took their lamps but did not take any oil with them.   4  The wise ones, however, took oil in jars along with their lamps.   5  The bridegroom was a long time in coming, and they all became drowsy and fell asleep. 6  “At midnight the cry rang out: ‘Here’s the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!’ 7  “Then all the virgins woke up and trimmed their lamps.   8  The foolish ones said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil; our lamps are going out.’ 9  “‘No,’ they replied, ‘there may not be enough for both us and you. Instead, go to those who sell oil and buy som...
Post a Comment
Read more

Age of Brokenness.

  We are living in an age of brokenness, no matter what age you are, you probably have been touched with relationships falling apart, which causes more and more people to live in isolation. In this generation there is less of an incentive to heal and reconcile relationships, but that doesn’t excuse the amount of people who are broken. Why people don’t seem to be motivated to heal relationships is because our beliefs about faith and God have changed, really giving us less of an incentive to do what our religion says. If I act from my personal beliefs, but the person that I am responding to has abandoned religious beliefs, than the response to my wanting things to be better can be misinterpreted and rejected then by someone else. Generally when a society has expectations about broken relationships, loneliness and isolation, and the beliefs are generally accepted, society becomes a more compassionate society, because all value the same things. When religious values are undermined and ...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Biblical Meaning of “Life in the Spirit.”

  “Life in the Spirit” is an example that the Apostle Paul gives in the book of Romans starting in chapter 5 and going through to chapter 8. He begins by telling us we are justified by faith (5:1), and have gained access by faith into the grace of God (5:2). We have been delivered from God’s wrath (5:9) and we have been reconciled to God through the death of His Son (5:10). He goes on to explain that through Adam all die (5:12), and that the free Gift of God brings justification and righteousness to the believing sinner (5:15-17).   Through our conversion we are baptized into Christ and into his death, which frees us from the law and makes us dead to sin (6:2-4). He explains that just as Christ was raised from the dead, we are given new life in Christ (6:4). Our old unregenerate self was crucified with Christ so that our body of sin might be done away with (6:5-6). Because we have died to sin, we now submit ourselves to God being that we are now under grace, not the law (6:8-1...
Post a Comment
Read more