Skip to main content

My Journey with God.

I became a born again Christian in 1995 through a radio ministry called "Hope for the Heart." I was struggling with a sexual sin, that was keeping me trapped and I learned that through the blood and the cross of Jesus I could be free from that sin. I was at work, and immediately after the broadcast I memorized their number, then after, called the ministry. I learned through material they sent me that my sexual sin was something I could be free from, and I confessed that sin to God and He freed me. I learned what the bible said about my sin, and I also heard the plan of salvation for the first time. To me church was something you did on Sunday, but being a Christian was never my identity. When I learned who Jesus was for the first time it was a revelation that changed my life and my understanding about Heaven. I was apprehensive about receiving Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour, but I did it anyway. In fact, I did it twice that night, just to be sure it took. And all these years later, I have been free from that sin.

The night I repented, I knew I had made my peace with God, but my faith was about to be challenged. Not several months after my conversion, I remember sitting in my basement after a relationship breakup, and I actually felt my belief in God leaving me. The question I was asking myself before this happened was "why did God allow this to happen?" I was a baby Christian and had no answers, so I lost my belief in God. That year, I got two tattoos and moved out to Peterborough Ontario, to attend University but left before the school year officially started, to travel to an ashram in California to learn how to meditate.

When I got back home, I was a different person, with very different beliefs, but to me it was real. Long story short, in 1999 I checked myself into the mental hospital because I felt like I was having a breakdown. It was one of the things that eventually brought me back to my Christian Faith. I met someone while I was in the hospital, and when I was released we both went to the meditation centre I used to go to in Toronto. She said something to me, I'll call her "Pat", Pat said "as you were meditating, I was talking to God for you." She asked me what God I worshiped? I told her there is only One God and she made me see that I had stopped worshipping the God of the bible. "Pat" helped me back to God. Although I couldn't let go of the informal mediation, I was back on a journey to discovering who the real God of the bible was, through the word of God. It's been almost 20 years now, and "Pat" and I are just friends. I still meditate, but it is no longer a religious experience.

I read my bible everyday and attend a Catholic Church because I grew up Catholic, and I identify as a born again Christian. I suffer from chronic depression and life is very hard at times. I suffer from anxiety too, but over the years I have attached myself to other believers in Christ. This is Mike.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Some Bible Verses on Money.

  Bible verses about money. I bet you didn’t think the bible said that? Proverbs 23:5 When you glance at wealth, it disappears, for it makes wings for itself and flies like an eagle to the sky.  1 Timothy 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. Proverbs 13:11 Wealth quickly gained is quickly wasted — easy come, easy go! But if you gradually gain wealth, you will watch it grow. Psalm 62:10 Don’t make your living by extortion or put your hope in stealing. And if your wealth increases, don’t make it the centre of your life. Luke 6:38 “Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” Ecclesiastes 11:1 Cast your bread upon the waters, for after many days you will find it again. Malachi 3:10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that
Post a Comment
Read more

My Story.

  In 1999 I suffered a mental health crisis and admitted myself into the hospital where I live, in which I was given a mental health diagnosis. I didn’t want to receive medication at the time, but unwillingly accepted it. I was in the hospital for about two months, when I asked my doctor if I could go home, and he said yes, even though he thought it would have been better if I stayed longer.   I was glad to be home though, but at 25, it took some adjusting to feel truly at home. One of the problems I was having at home was it was hard for me to eat the food in the house. I was having a psychosis where I felt the food wasn’t mine, and I literally had to go out to eat, or buy bread from the supermarket and take it home to eat it. Eventually this wore off, but I don’t remember how long.  I was now on ODSP and had a check come to me every month in order to have financial support. I would occasionally have a crisis, and ask my mom to drive me to the hospital, but eventually the crisis would
Post a Comment
Read more

Why has the church lost its capacity and power?

  The church has modernized itself and in the process has lost something very valuable. It has lost its capacity to be personable. The way we reach lost souls is by seeing them, by getting to know them, and by recognizing them, but people are getting lost in the church. The church has become a busy place and is also becoming a less holy place. To make disciples we have to get to know people, and technology in the church is depersonalizing souls, and depersonalizing God for them. Faith becomes a marketable commodity, whereas in the past, churches and their leaders nourished and valued personal faith. While faith is still valued, it’s becoming something that is marketable, which reminds me of the story of Jesus in the temple turning over tables (Matthew 21:12-17). The problem isn’t that the church doesn’t work or doesn’t want to share the gospel, it could be how we are doing it. The church is currently being run like a business, and each Christian metaphorically speaking has a profit val
Post a Comment
Read more