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Serving the self.

Serving the self,

Serving the self leads to unhappiness, it creates a desire in me to sin because if everybody is doing it, then it must be ok. Serving the self is unhealthy for my body because it leads to a heightened body awareness and that leads to vanity and an endless craving to feed the carnal nature and the body. Serving the self leads me away from God, and true intimacy with others, and can make me emotionally unavailable to the people that need my attention the most. It prevents me from fulfilling my hopes and dreams because I am never satisfied with the results of my creativity and it stops me from thinking an original thought. It makes me the servant of others, and I truly fail at meeting all of my real needs.

It keeps me locked in depression because I crave and crave the intimacy of others but I am not happy until everything goes as I thought it should. It places unrealistic demands upon myself, until I get tired of myself and constantly not getting my way. It affects other's perception of me, and gives them the impression that I don't care about them, when In reality I really do, and serving the self creates resentment in those I love because my actions actually seem like I really don't care for their happiness just mine.

It prevents me from living in the light and experiencing the love of God. No one lives in this world alone, serving the self creates an isolated existence. Peace of mind comes from letting the love and light of God into your soul, and letting that same light of God into your souls from true people. This world is filled with over 6 billion people, whenever you feel alone, judged and misunderstood just hold this thought in your mind, "There are at least thousands of people like me right now, people who are hurting and are alone. People who are Looking for the truth. People who are going through abuse of some kind right now. People who are looking for an escape in life. People who need God, because only in true love do we come fully alive. Love is not sex or lust, it is looking into a person's soul and seeing the true beauty that comes from a soul that is made in the image of God. A soul who isn't afraid to be vulnerable, a happy soul. Anger is a cancer that eats at the heart and soul of happiness. To be forgiven by God is true happiness." This is Mike.

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