Going under the needle.

Last month I was given a blood requisition form by my doctor/psychiatrist for certain medications I am on. The problem is that I have to fast 12 hours, so the suggestion goes; if you go to bed at 11pm and wake up, at 11am that's a twelve hour fast. Just make your way over to the hospital and get your blood work done. But the problem is that I suffer from insomnia...not joking. I don't have a problem going to sleep it's just that I usually don't get to bed until 12am or 1am, and I wake up feeling like I've been through a war, not like I've had a good night sleep. The last thing I want at this point is for strangers to poke a hole in my skin and draw blood making me feel even weaker than I do when I wake up. It usually takes me several hours after I wake up to feel normal enough to start my day. Yes there are natural stimulants that I use to help in this process, but I woke up this morning to the resolve that I would make today the day I would get my blood work done.

I got up and out of bed, and nearly felt like I was dying. There is my dad who was out all night, who had slept in, it is now 11am, I went to bed at 1am last night and I feel that if I don't take my medication I'll go crazy. So I kamikazed it and not only did I have a stimulant but I took my medication, (which you are not supposed to take before your blood test) and I'm laying in bed listening to my father come out of his shower (11:13am) and desperately wanting to go downstairs and kamikaze it with another stimulant, just to feel alive. This happens ever year when I am forced to go under the needle and take a blood test for medications that I feel are not working, but feel forced to take them, with a dead beat dad who never leaves the house till 12pm on days when I'm resolved to go to the hospital. Tomorrow is Thursday, but if this pattern persists, I will go to my doctors visit this month, without having done my blood test and feeling like my body is shutting down, and craving another coffee or something that will pick me up.

Comments

The Parable of the Ten Virgins.

Matthew 25:1-13 I have discovered a remarkable interpretation of this parable that I would like to share with you. The story in the Bible goes like this: “At that time the kingdom of heaven will be like ten virgins who took their lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom. 2 Five of them were foolish and five were wise. 3 The foolish ones took their lamps but did not take any oil with them. 4 The wise ones, however, took oil in jars along with their lamps. 5 The bridegroom was a long time in coming, and they all became drowsy and fell asleep. 6 “At midnight the cry rang out: ‘Here’s the bridegroom! Come out to meet him!’ 7 “Then all the virgins woke up and trimmed their lamps. 8 The foolish ones said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil; our lamps are going out.’ 9 “‘No,’ they replied, ‘there may not be enough for both us and you. Instead, go to those who sell oil and buy som...

Age of Brokenness.

We are living in an age of brokenness, no matter what age you are, you probably have been touched with relationships falling apart, which causes more and more people to live in isolation. In this generation there is less of an incentive to heal and reconcile relationships, but that doesn’t excuse the amount of people who are broken. Why people don’t seem to be motivated to heal relationships is because our beliefs about faith and God have changed, really giving us less of an incentive to do what our religion says. If I act from my personal beliefs, but the person that I am responding to has abandoned religious beliefs, than the response to my wanting things to be better can be misinterpreted and rejected then by someone else. Generally when a society has expectations about broken relationships, loneliness and isolation, and the beliefs are generally accepted, society becomes a more compassionate society, because all value the same things. When religious values are undermined and ...

The Biblical Meaning of “Life in the Spirit.”

“Life in the Spirit” is an example that the Apostle Paul gives in the book of Romans starting in chapter 5 and going through to chapter 8. He begins by telling us we are justified by faith (5:1), and have gained access by faith into the grace of God (5:2). We have been delivered from God’s wrath (5:9) and we have been reconciled to God through the death of His Son (5:10). He goes on to explain that through Adam all die (5:12), and that the free Gift of God brings justification and righteousness to the believing sinner (5:15-17). Through our conversion we are baptized into Christ and into his death, which frees us from the law and makes us dead to sin (6:2-4). He explains that just as Christ was raised from the dead, we are given new life in Christ (6:4). Our old unregenerate self was crucified with Christ so that our body of sin might be done away with (6:5-6). Because we have died to sin, we now submit ourselves to God being that we are now under grace, not the law (6:8-1...

The Super Blogosphere of a parallel word.

Search This Blog