Turning 40 for me was a milestone. Being halfway through life can be troubling sometimes. And it could be more troubling when you've never married. I've never been a pleasure seeker but to look back on my pathway though, I can't help remembering that movie the bucket list. People say that you should regret your life especially when you come to the end of it, but being halfway through I am reminded that it is only a number. I've been through dark valleys, and I've been through times of great despair. But looking back at your life at 41, you can say that there still some things that I wish I had of done. When things slow down, your heart races. I used to believe that age was only a number, and in fact that exactly is what it is. When you are younger you worry about the future, and when you're older you worry about not having enough time left. I remember a time when I was in college, there was a concept in life that I had there too at that particular time. I am n